This excerpt is from Eckhart Tolle in The Power of Now:
In the timeless realm, where God dwells, which is also your home, the beginning and the end, the Alpha and the Omega, are one, and the essence of everything that ever has been and ever will be is eternally present in an unmanifested state of oneness and perfection—totally beyond anything the human mind can ever imagine or comprehend. In our world of seemingly separate forms, however, timeless perfection is an inconceivable concept. Here even consciousness, which is the light emanating from the eternal Source, seems to be subject to a process of development, but this is due to our limited perception. It is not so in absolute terms.
I love the expressions that Eckhart Tolle uses in his book. I see it as a kind of primer for those who truly want to awaken and begin a process of transformation. It is totally useful in this regard, it is confrontational and informative and those who read it and practice it will surely benefit from it.
Yet, to really embark upon a transformation of the mind, your mind requires a mind training, because as Tolle aptly states, your problem is your mind. And because your mind is the problem, the solution has to come from a relinquishment of the ego mind. How does one do that? This is how. Just do as you are told...one lesson at a time.
As A Course in Miracles states, “an untrained mind can accomplish nothing”. As I undergo a process of transformation by a constant relinquishing of my ideas, my separate thoughts of suffering, pain and death, I am aware of just how much focus and attention my mind required in order to become free. It is no small thing.
The mind is very devious and will convince you that you do not need to train your mind, or do the 12 Steps or really apply the teaching to every thought you think.
Yet, I am not willing to remain a prisoner of my mind. I simply I want to be free above all else. I know how tricky your ego mind is, how it thinks along these lines yet all the while maintaining its separate ideas. How it entertains spiritual ideas, yet never really embraces and applies the true teachings.
I see it all the time. I see it in myself when I judge my brother. I see it in my fears that cause all my unhappiness that I must uncover and reveal to the Holy Spirit. This is an undertaking that requires an initiation, a relinquishment and a constant attention to the light that lies beyond all form, and all of time and space. It is not easy. But you become free when you do it. When you apply it each and every moment that you are not happy.
Is it possible to live in joy all the time? Oh yes, absolutely! So, in this sense, you have nothing to worry about. Your awakening is inevitable. The Power of Now is helpful and the mind training of A Course in Miracles works totally because it is a required course. The documentary about to be released called A Course in Miracles Unleashed is a testament to the awakening of the mind using the lessons of the Workbook of the Course. It is such a beautiful testimony to the power of this course and how it changes you, how the calling is going out to those who are messengers, teachers of the universal course. It is time to awaken, to bring others to the point of making the one decision that determines all others.
So, you have all the help you need. But, you still have to do it. You have to apply it to your everyday life and your thoughts about yourself. And you need total help from awakened minds. I needed the Master Teacher and I needed every brother who supported me along the way. That is absolutely clear to me. I couldn’t wake myself up. I needed help. Luckily, I received this help right when I needed it.
And so are you. If you are reading this blog and are reading the Course, it isn't enough to just read it. You have to live it, breathe it, become it...until the ideas are the very thoughts you think all the time. You live in a reality of love and the awareness that all that truly exists is light and love. Is that really possible...YES!
It takes everything, your constant devotion to your awakening, your constant dedication to relinquish judgment. And the willingness to be wrong. You must let go of thinking you already have it, and you will be given so much more. I promise you, the adventure of your life is just beginning. You have to want it to expand, to grow, to take you beyond the point where you are right now.
Love and blessings,
Monica
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
I am Surrounded by the Love of God
This is from "How Simple the Solution" a book that contains some of the Master Teacher's talks. It is an amazing book and I highly recommend getting your copy as it continually helps me. Here it is:
The basis of the teachings of subjective reality indicate to you that this is your world. No matter how tempted you are to think that there's something outside of your dream about it, there isn't. You are the cause of this. This will give you a real good feeling if you are ready to look at it. The first feeling you will have when you look at this is kind of fearful. You will go "Holy mackerel? You mean this is between me and the rest of the universe?" Yes! It has nothing to do with the images you have constructed to hold mutual grievances outside of you--that is to commiserate with your own death process. No! Now, you will like that. Why? Because it's individual transformation, and indeed the transformation is individual and singular.
Now we are into teaching initiation. We want to show you that you can actually go through a process in your own mind where you change the world. This is the declaration of Master Jesus that you are the savior of the world. But why should that be such a big deal if you constructed the world? ...Remember that thw world was constructed outside the framework of reality. And your relinquishment of it, then, is a necessary part.
OK. Now, how do you do that? By a constant surrendering of your ideas of separation, limitation, lack, littleness, pain, suffering, illness, and, finally death. Or, better yet. Look at the idea of death first and it will speed up your process for you immeasurably.
It is all based upon the premise that you are not a body. Because if you are not a body, you obviously cannot die, since it is only bodies that appear to die. If you can accept the fact that you are light, and that light is energy and has no end, you will proceed very rapidly. But, you have to be willing to give up every idea of a body. All associated ideas with a body are false. All ideas of having to be here and suffer and survive and live in this dream until death happens to you, must be relinquished by YOU. Because you made them up. If you can accept this fundamental fact, your process will be very rapid. That is my goal, just to help speed up your process.
OK? Not that hard? No. It doesn't take time for truth to be true. What takes time is your insistence that it take time. And your ideas about time are also false because time is a trick. All time is going on all the time. It is not sequential. You see how deluded you have made yourself? Not only do you think you are a body, but you also think you are in time. And that time is linear. Not true.
Think of vertical time, instead of horizontal time. Perhaps that will help you. All time lines are going on at the same time. That is why you can time travel if you want. It isn't hard, you just have to want to. But, still what is the point of time travel if it is always over? The time you woke up from the dream has truly already occurred. You are just remembering it now. You are looking back on it, and going through the motions, and in any given moment, you will suddenly go...wow, it was just a dream!!!
You see, it isn't real, this earth. You have to be willing to look at the possibility that you, like Jesus, resurrected from this earth and left. When did it happen? You tell me! It's entirely up to you. There is no power outside yourself that is stopping you.
I am totally amazed at the idea of victim or helplessness. You are a being of immense light energy. You can do anything in the universe. You are totally creative because you are Mind. And yet, you insist on telling a story of you being a body, a victim of circumstance. How ridiculous! Look at you. Close your eyes and feel the light energy that is YOU and that you radiate out from you.
It is incredible. Let it in. You are an amazing light! Feel it, talk to it, be in communication with it.
The only thing stopping you from this communication is you. You can decide not to be in communication with yourself, with God, with the universe. But you have already experienced the result of it...pain, loss, death. Is it any fun?
Come on. You know it isn't fun. God is telling you of your immensity, your grandeur, your perfection. Don't you want to know that? I hope so!
Let me know if I can help in any way. I just know that victims really are control freaks. They are trying to get everyone around them to feel sorry for them. I was big victim for a while. Then I got sick and tired of the game I was playing. I got really fed up with it. Finally, I died. I just let go of it all. And I woke up.
My victim story wasn't even true. It all turned out perfect. I am free now. My whole story ended in my resurrection. Wow. What a surprise. Everyone I see or think of is now set free. They were always free. I just didn't see them because I wasn't free. Now I see what is true. Freedom is total. When you are free, everything radiates love.
I am amazed at this. I am constantly amazed at how simple salvation truly is. Love is everywhere in everyone and there is no time or place where it isn't. Love is real. Nothing else is real. Only love....all you need is love. This is a true Christian teaching. Love your enemy and you will see it was only you. You made up your dream of suffering and you can let it end now!!!!
What in hell are you waiting for?
Blessings!
Monica
The basis of the teachings of subjective reality indicate to you that this is your world. No matter how tempted you are to think that there's something outside of your dream about it, there isn't. You are the cause of this. This will give you a real good feeling if you are ready to look at it. The first feeling you will have when you look at this is kind of fearful. You will go "Holy mackerel? You mean this is between me and the rest of the universe?" Yes! It has nothing to do with the images you have constructed to hold mutual grievances outside of you--that is to commiserate with your own death process. No! Now, you will like that. Why? Because it's individual transformation, and indeed the transformation is individual and singular.
Now we are into teaching initiation. We want to show you that you can actually go through a process in your own mind where you change the world. This is the declaration of Master Jesus that you are the savior of the world. But why should that be such a big deal if you constructed the world? ...Remember that thw world was constructed outside the framework of reality. And your relinquishment of it, then, is a necessary part.
OK. Now, how do you do that? By a constant surrendering of your ideas of separation, limitation, lack, littleness, pain, suffering, illness, and, finally death. Or, better yet. Look at the idea of death first and it will speed up your process for you immeasurably.
It is all based upon the premise that you are not a body. Because if you are not a body, you obviously cannot die, since it is only bodies that appear to die. If you can accept the fact that you are light, and that light is energy and has no end, you will proceed very rapidly. But, you have to be willing to give up every idea of a body. All associated ideas with a body are false. All ideas of having to be here and suffer and survive and live in this dream until death happens to you, must be relinquished by YOU. Because you made them up. If you can accept this fundamental fact, your process will be very rapid. That is my goal, just to help speed up your process.
OK? Not that hard? No. It doesn't take time for truth to be true. What takes time is your insistence that it take time. And your ideas about time are also false because time is a trick. All time is going on all the time. It is not sequential. You see how deluded you have made yourself? Not only do you think you are a body, but you also think you are in time. And that time is linear. Not true.
Think of vertical time, instead of horizontal time. Perhaps that will help you. All time lines are going on at the same time. That is why you can time travel if you want. It isn't hard, you just have to want to. But, still what is the point of time travel if it is always over? The time you woke up from the dream has truly already occurred. You are just remembering it now. You are looking back on it, and going through the motions, and in any given moment, you will suddenly go...wow, it was just a dream!!!
You see, it isn't real, this earth. You have to be willing to look at the possibility that you, like Jesus, resurrected from this earth and left. When did it happen? You tell me! It's entirely up to you. There is no power outside yourself that is stopping you.
I am totally amazed at the idea of victim or helplessness. You are a being of immense light energy. You can do anything in the universe. You are totally creative because you are Mind. And yet, you insist on telling a story of you being a body, a victim of circumstance. How ridiculous! Look at you. Close your eyes and feel the light energy that is YOU and that you radiate out from you.
It is incredible. Let it in. You are an amazing light! Feel it, talk to it, be in communication with it.
The only thing stopping you from this communication is you. You can decide not to be in communication with yourself, with God, with the universe. But you have already experienced the result of it...pain, loss, death. Is it any fun?
Come on. You know it isn't fun. God is telling you of your immensity, your grandeur, your perfection. Don't you want to know that? I hope so!
Let me know if I can help in any way. I just know that victims really are control freaks. They are trying to get everyone around them to feel sorry for them. I was big victim for a while. Then I got sick and tired of the game I was playing. I got really fed up with it. Finally, I died. I just let go of it all. And I woke up.
My victim story wasn't even true. It all turned out perfect. I am free now. My whole story ended in my resurrection. Wow. What a surprise. Everyone I see or think of is now set free. They were always free. I just didn't see them because I wasn't free. Now I see what is true. Freedom is total. When you are free, everything radiates love.
I am amazed at this. I am constantly amazed at how simple salvation truly is. Love is everywhere in everyone and there is no time or place where it isn't. Love is real. Nothing else is real. Only love....all you need is love. This is a true Christian teaching. Love your enemy and you will see it was only you. You made up your dream of suffering and you can let it end now!!!!
What in hell are you waiting for?
Blessings!
Monica
Sunday, July 6, 2008
What is Illumination?
Since the passing of the body of the Master Teacher, I have been in a state of mind that is totally new. I cannot describe it. I know it isn't really different from before, but just more exponential in its power. I asked to be shown why this is.
The answer came from the Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East. Here it is:
"When we go back to the center of anything, it is pure light and this is the inner light of which Jesus spoke. It is the light of Illumination. The greater man's spiritual awakening, the greater the light. Have you not noticed that one awakened in joy has a radiance about his countenance? When one is spiritually awake, the light is correspondingly bright. That is why artists paint Jesus with a halo of light about him. Light is life. This is the "light that lighteth every man that cometh into the world" and it is the fire through which the initiates of the occult schools had to walk in order to be eligible to illumination. This light is all about us and is an emanation of the Pranic ethers. It is the light which is the beginning and the end of creation. When you can live in the light, as you now live in your sense of body, you will be immortal for the light never dies...
The transfiguration of Christ was when the consciousness of Jesus was merged into the realization that Intelligence, Life, and Substance were in the last analysis ONE and that One was what he called the Father, or primal cause, like all the various colors of the spectrum returning to a pure ray of white light."
Well, I don't know if this helps you, but it sure does show me that there is nothing going on here in dark form. There is only light and that light is me and is everywhere. This is the same teaching that all Masters teach. It never varies because truth is true and nothing else is true.
You must go through your initiation to experience it, however. It is imperative that you train your mind and that you focus on your transformation whole heartedly. There is no room for deviation from the purpose. The mission to fulfill is your awakening. It has nothing to do with anyone else. NOTHING.
So, be about it. All the tools are here. All the light and support are here. It is up to you when you awaken, but you even already decided that. We are still in body to shorten your time, that is all. You do not need to linger in time any more. It is over. It is past. Everything you see here is of your own making and it does not exist.
Freedom means coming into the light of your endless joy and love of your brother who is your Self! It is what you already are, so it doesn't take time to experience it. It is simply yours...it is your inheritance.
But you must relinquish the material static noncreative world you made. You must let go of your desire for anything other than perfection and perfect love. Forgive your enemy...for it is YOU! There is nothing in opposition to you. You are simply denying your own happiness and freedom in every moment. Pain is a poor perspetive. Be free. Choose again. It is very simple, but you have to want it, apply it and experience it.
I love you!
Monica
The answer came from the Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East. Here it is:
"When we go back to the center of anything, it is pure light and this is the inner light of which Jesus spoke. It is the light of Illumination. The greater man's spiritual awakening, the greater the light. Have you not noticed that one awakened in joy has a radiance about his countenance? When one is spiritually awake, the light is correspondingly bright. That is why artists paint Jesus with a halo of light about him. Light is life. This is the "light that lighteth every man that cometh into the world" and it is the fire through which the initiates of the occult schools had to walk in order to be eligible to illumination. This light is all about us and is an emanation of the Pranic ethers. It is the light which is the beginning and the end of creation. When you can live in the light, as you now live in your sense of body, you will be immortal for the light never dies...
The transfiguration of Christ was when the consciousness of Jesus was merged into the realization that Intelligence, Life, and Substance were in the last analysis ONE and that One was what he called the Father, or primal cause, like all the various colors of the spectrum returning to a pure ray of white light."
Well, I don't know if this helps you, but it sure does show me that there is nothing going on here in dark form. There is only light and that light is me and is everywhere. This is the same teaching that all Masters teach. It never varies because truth is true and nothing else is true.
You must go through your initiation to experience it, however. It is imperative that you train your mind and that you focus on your transformation whole heartedly. There is no room for deviation from the purpose. The mission to fulfill is your awakening. It has nothing to do with anyone else. NOTHING.
So, be about it. All the tools are here. All the light and support are here. It is up to you when you awaken, but you even already decided that. We are still in body to shorten your time, that is all. You do not need to linger in time any more. It is over. It is past. Everything you see here is of your own making and it does not exist.
Freedom means coming into the light of your endless joy and love of your brother who is your Self! It is what you already are, so it doesn't take time to experience it. It is simply yours...it is your inheritance.
But you must relinquish the material static noncreative world you made. You must let go of your desire for anything other than perfection and perfect love. Forgive your enemy...for it is YOU! There is nothing in opposition to you. You are simply denying your own happiness and freedom in every moment. Pain is a poor perspetive. Be free. Choose again. It is very simple, but you have to want it, apply it and experience it.
I love you!
Monica
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Fearless
This is a painting by a dear friend of mine in New York, Monica Serra. She is an awakened mind and I went to visit her last week after several years. She is amazing. Her transformation is in her paintings and she demonstrates the love of God so beautifully in her giving of herself to all her friends and family. She is incredible and I am so grateful to have her in my life!
A few days ago, we watched the Master Teacher's video from the Presidio, San Francisco from March of 1999. My friend Monica and I together met the Master at this Reunion of the Teachers of God. It was a moment in time I will never forget. I only know that the Plan is perfect in its timing and there is indeed nothing to fear. I only know that my part is essential and I can value it above all else.
I have lost my fear. I have lost my need to learn through pain. I have been blessed with friends that are deeply committed to this awakening. I know that I had only to make one decision to awaken and that was a real choice. Everything that happened to me after that came from this one decision which reflected a willingness to be healed, to be forgiven and to release my mind, my world that I made up to keep me in hell. As a separate mind, I don't know how to forgive, but I do know how to ask that Jesus show me how. And he did. He is with me. I talk to him all through the day. I know he totally loves me and wants only my perfect happiness. I have a real intimate relationship with him and he is my guide and savior.
I know that my initiation into this brotherhood of awakened minds has occurred. I constantly feel the assistance all around me, especially when conflict arises in my daily life. I know there is a Voice in my mind that is constantly speaking to me and helping to see everything totally new. If I accept that healing in every moment, I am free. I have to be vigilant for God.
Fear is just a poor perspective and doesn't exist. When you are fearful you don't exist. It's like your mind is just on hold when you are allowing fear to rule your life. Yet, to go past it, you must let it arise in your awareness. Don't reject it. Don't resist evil, don't resist fear. Let it come into your mind and ask for help from the Great Corrector. Your mind knows how to heal itself. That is why you never need be sick or in pain. The correction device is in you. In the Urantia Book, it is called the Thought Adjuster. Each of us has this Thought Adjuster in our mind and can access it at any time. This Adjuster works all the time to help in the release of the false self.
That is what the Kingdom of Heaven is, a kingdom of conscience, of being aware of the thoughts you are thinking and the willingness to have them be corrected. When I am in pain, I cannot wait to have the correction. I move through it very fast because the pain is intolerable to me.
Can you tolerate the judgments you make? Can you tolerate wanting to change external circumstances? Are you frustrated with your relationships because they don't really satisfy you? Remember, nothing can be changed outside of your mind. Your mind gives everything you see all the meaning it has for you. Therefore, seek not to change the world, but to simply change your own mind. This is the secret to salvation. It is so simple, yet you must do it. You must be about your Father's business. Mind is singular. You are not two selves in conflict. Life is eternal and you are that life. It never ends, therfore, there is nothing to fear. Death is impossible. God created you eternal, perfect and whole. Can you accept that?
I learned this in a very practical way from the 12 Step Program which does not give me one ounce of room for self-deception. I found that in doing the steps, my mind was healed and the revelation that I was the problem in every circumstance. Even when it really seemed like someone had done something to me. The steps show me in total clarity that behind every grievance is a bunch of fear. And this fear must be uncovered to be healed. Doing the steps is simply an exercise in looking at yourself, revealing the fears, letting be corrected and then, voila! You become a brand new YOU.
I cannot believe the light and love I experience each day from following this simple program. It is astounding. Everything has changed and I am free of all that fear I had covered up. I live in the NOW. The dream has taken on a new light of love and acceptance that I never knew possible. I am here only to truly serve and love and give and be happy!
Let me know if you need anything at all. I love you with all my heart. You are part of me and we are free!
Thank you!
Blessings!
Monica
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Who walks with me?
As I read today's lesson, the question at the end suggests that we ask ourselves this a thousand times. A thousand times!
I ask it in the form of a song. I feel that this is a constant prayer. A repetition of a question that cannot be answered by words alone. The feeling I experience is assurance, calm, certainty. I can imagine that I am with all the ascended masters. Watched over. Taken care of like a newborn baby by its adoring mother.
All these feelings come into my awareness when I sincerely ask the question. Do I dare do so? I have nothing else that is more important to do. There isn't anything more important than an experience of total joining with my One Self. All worldly activities seem pale compared to this desire for knowledge, for the experience of wholeness.
It isn't hard. It is just that I have to value this above all other activities of this seemingly distracting world. I don't have to be distracted by it, however. No more. I simply have to give myself to the practice.
Stay alert. Keep my focus on the inner peace, the inner state of my mind. It isn't hard, it is just different.
Let me know how this goes for you.
Blessings!
I ask it in the form of a song. I feel that this is a constant prayer. A repetition of a question that cannot be answered by words alone. The feeling I experience is assurance, calm, certainty. I can imagine that I am with all the ascended masters. Watched over. Taken care of like a newborn baby by its adoring mother.
All these feelings come into my awareness when I sincerely ask the question. Do I dare do so? I have nothing else that is more important to do. There isn't anything more important than an experience of total joining with my One Self. All worldly activities seem pale compared to this desire for knowledge, for the experience of wholeness.
It isn't hard. It is just that I have to value this above all other activities of this seemingly distracting world. I don't have to be distracted by it, however. No more. I simply have to give myself to the practice.
Stay alert. Keep my focus on the inner peace, the inner state of my mind. It isn't hard, it is just different.
Let me know how this goes for you.
Blessings!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Time of Transition
We are all feeling the insertion of an amazing light factor that is the Master Teacher out of body. He is everywhere. I am everywhere. I made my amends to my partner whom I love so much the day after this occurred, and I finally realized that I was only doing it all to myself. That I am what love is. I simply cannot believe the power behind this realization.
In doing this last forgiveness, I uncovered so much fear. Behind every grievance was a list of at least four or five fears, fear of loss, fear of no communication, fear of being alone, fear of nothingness, fear of not having my dream fulfilled!
I listed them all and they were 2 1/2 pages long. So, I asked Jesus, this is too much fear for me to deal with, what is it I am really afraid of now? He said, "Your perfection." So, I let go.
I went to see a Network chiropractor I used to go to in Brooklyn. He is an amazing healer and he helped me so much when I was going throught my initial transformation and having babies in New York. Amazingly, he now lives in Viroqua, a really nice little town not far from here. I was instructed to go by myself.
This was on Tuesday, the day Dear One left, and I gave him Dear One's video called "The Successful Transformation of the Human Being". He did a spinal adjustment on me and he found within my mental field a tiny voice that was behind this fear of perfection: It said "I am not enough." And it released and I suddenly realized, I am the light of the world. I can be this now because I am not afraid. I can be whole and perfect as God created me. No more doubts!
That night, I was driving through Reedsburg just around 8pm when Dear One made his final transition. In session the next day, I made my amends to my husband and the tears would not stop flowing.
We had a 12 Step meeting last night where I shared my story, and I am feeling so much love walking around in so much light now. I cannot believe it. I watch the Old Man's videos every night before I sleep and he is with me all night long. Lots of people are coming in to receive his light. He has fulfilled his assignment. Now I must fulfill mine.
It is so incredible. But it isn't really any different than when he was here. It is just up to us to fulfill our function now. There is so much gratitude! You can watch the latest videos on themiracletimes.com!
All for now,
Love and blessings!
Monica
In doing this last forgiveness, I uncovered so much fear. Behind every grievance was a list of at least four or five fears, fear of loss, fear of no communication, fear of being alone, fear of nothingness, fear of not having my dream fulfilled!
I listed them all and they were 2 1/2 pages long. So, I asked Jesus, this is too much fear for me to deal with, what is it I am really afraid of now? He said, "Your perfection." So, I let go.
I went to see a Network chiropractor I used to go to in Brooklyn. He is an amazing healer and he helped me so much when I was going throught my initial transformation and having babies in New York. Amazingly, he now lives in Viroqua, a really nice little town not far from here. I was instructed to go by myself.
This was on Tuesday, the day Dear One left, and I gave him Dear One's video called "The Successful Transformation of the Human Being". He did a spinal adjustment on me and he found within my mental field a tiny voice that was behind this fear of perfection: It said "I am not enough." And it released and I suddenly realized, I am the light of the world. I can be this now because I am not afraid. I can be whole and perfect as God created me. No more doubts!
That night, I was driving through Reedsburg just around 8pm when Dear One made his final transition. In session the next day, I made my amends to my husband and the tears would not stop flowing.
We had a 12 Step meeting last night where I shared my story, and I am feeling so much love walking around in so much light now. I cannot believe it. I watch the Old Man's videos every night before I sleep and he is with me all night long. Lots of people are coming in to receive his light. He has fulfilled his assignment. Now I must fulfill mine.
It is so incredible. But it isn't really any different than when he was here. It is just up to us to fulfill our function now. There is so much gratitude! You can watch the latest videos on themiracletimes.com!
All for now,
Love and blessings!
Monica
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Light and Love
I am astounded by the opening of my heart today. It is Mother's Day and a miracle happened for me. I was given a ticket to see an opera, Lucia di Lamamoor. It was incredibly wonderful. There is tremendous joy in trusting in God. I feel so much joy just by being myself and emjoying the love for myself and my Creator. The music was so beautiful, it included the most human dramas of special relationship. It reminded me of what I just released.
I only know that the light of my mind is becoming more expansive. I am open to receive finally. Letting in the light is loving myself totally and not blocking it with self doubt or fear. I have to relearn this natural receiving of the love of God.
It is always there, but I was blocking it with idols. I was looking outside myself for love. And it failed. Every time I tried, it failed. I suck at being human! All my relationships have failed.
I am so grateful. Now I realize it was always my Self I was seeking and I have found it.
This is all just a reminder to look within and find real happiness that is eternal. It never dies. Jesus is adamant about this. He is constantly, throughout the Course in Miracles, telling me to look within and I will see him. He is there. Unless I am afraid to look within, then I won't experience his love. But, if not...there he is. And he is me. This is eternal immortal love. It flows in and outside me. I have nothing to say about it. I just open up and receive it and it is healing every cell of my body. It is healing every thought in my mind.
I am not separate from that exquisite love that pours through me and out into the Universe. I am so happy this is true. I need do nothing. I am the love that I seek.
All I had to do was uncover the fears that were showing me that all my attempts at a special relationship were doomed to fail. Of course, because the special love relationship is a working out of vengeance on the past. So, in that sense, it never works out. It is always a huge disappointment. Why? Because THE PAST IS GONE. It doesn't make sense to try to solve it by another attempt at seeking outside for the love of God. It is time to put my toys away and stop the nonsense. I am what love is. I do not need to look outside for it. Period.
I've been reading The Song of Songs and Enlightenment by Dorothy Elder. I love it because it is showing me that to truly reach enlightenment, you have to let go of your ideas of what love is and what you are. You are in a mystical marriage of Creator and Son. This is singular. You are merging again with your Creator. You were asleep and now you waking up to the total experience of the divine love that is what you are! It is so exciting. I find myself in states of utter happiness and ecstasy.
Most of the time, I am just so grateful. I can only thank God that He has ceaselessly loved me since I was created. I can be grateful that I was willing to go through anything at all to have this happen to me. And that it is all a miracle.
I just found that in looking at my fear of being alone, I simply asked Jesus, okay, I see I am full of fear, but what am I really afraid of here? Do you know what he told me? I am afraid of my perfection.
Isn't that amazing? I am only afraid of myself. And guess what? I am my Self and it is Perfect. I have nothing to say about it. I have to be myself. That's it! How simple is salvation.
Blessings!
I only know that the light of my mind is becoming more expansive. I am open to receive finally. Letting in the light is loving myself totally and not blocking it with self doubt or fear. I have to relearn this natural receiving of the love of God.
It is always there, but I was blocking it with idols. I was looking outside myself for love. And it failed. Every time I tried, it failed. I suck at being human! All my relationships have failed.
I am so grateful. Now I realize it was always my Self I was seeking and I have found it.
This is all just a reminder to look within and find real happiness that is eternal. It never dies. Jesus is adamant about this. He is constantly, throughout the Course in Miracles, telling me to look within and I will see him. He is there. Unless I am afraid to look within, then I won't experience his love. But, if not...there he is. And he is me. This is eternal immortal love. It flows in and outside me. I have nothing to say about it. I just open up and receive it and it is healing every cell of my body. It is healing every thought in my mind.
I am not separate from that exquisite love that pours through me and out into the Universe. I am so happy this is true. I need do nothing. I am the love that I seek.
All I had to do was uncover the fears that were showing me that all my attempts at a special relationship were doomed to fail. Of course, because the special love relationship is a working out of vengeance on the past. So, in that sense, it never works out. It is always a huge disappointment. Why? Because THE PAST IS GONE. It doesn't make sense to try to solve it by another attempt at seeking outside for the love of God. It is time to put my toys away and stop the nonsense. I am what love is. I do not need to look outside for it. Period.
I've been reading The Song of Songs and Enlightenment by Dorothy Elder. I love it because it is showing me that to truly reach enlightenment, you have to let go of your ideas of what love is and what you are. You are in a mystical marriage of Creator and Son. This is singular. You are merging again with your Creator. You were asleep and now you waking up to the total experience of the divine love that is what you are! It is so exciting. I find myself in states of utter happiness and ecstasy.
Most of the time, I am just so grateful. I can only thank God that He has ceaselessly loved me since I was created. I can be grateful that I was willing to go through anything at all to have this happen to me. And that it is all a miracle.
I just found that in looking at my fear of being alone, I simply asked Jesus, okay, I see I am full of fear, but what am I really afraid of here? Do you know what he told me? I am afraid of my perfection.
Isn't that amazing? I am only afraid of myself. And guess what? I am my Self and it is Perfect. I have nothing to say about it. I have to be myself. That's it! How simple is salvation.
Blessings!
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