What is Illumination?

Since the passing of the body of the Master Teacher, I have been in a state of mind that is totally new. I cannot describe it. I know it isn't really different from before, but just more exponential in its power. I asked to be shown why this is.

The answer came from the Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East. Here it is:

"When we go back to the center of anything, it is pure light and this is the inner light of which Jesus spoke. It is the light of Illumination. The greater man's spiritual awakening, the greater the light. Have you not noticed that one awakened in joy has a radiance about his countenance? When one is spiritually awake, the light is correspondingly bright. That is why artists paint Jesus with a halo of light about him. Light is life. This is the "light that lighteth every man that cometh into the world" and it is the fire through which the initiates of the occult schools had to walk in order to be eligible to illumination. This light is all about us and is an emanation of the Pranic ethers. It is the light which is the beginning and the end of creation. When you can live in the light, as you now live in your sense of body, you will be immortal for the light never dies...

The transfiguration of Christ was when the consciousness of Jesus was merged into the realization that Intelligence, Life, and Substance were in the last analysis ONE and that One was what he called the Father, or primal cause, like all the various colors of the spectrum returning to a pure ray of white light."

Well, I don't know if this helps you, but it sure does show me that there is nothing going on here in dark form. There is only light and that light is me and is everywhere. This is the same teaching that all Masters teach. It never varies because truth is true and nothing else is true.

You must go through your initiation to experience it, however. It is imperative that you train your mind and that you focus on your transformation whole heartedly. There is no room for deviation from the purpose. The mission to fulfill is your awakening. It has nothing to do with anyone else. NOTHING.

So, be about it. All the tools are here. All the light and support are here. It is up to you when you awaken, but you even already decided that. We are still in body to shorten your time, that is all. You do not need to linger in time any more. It is over. It is past. Everything you see here is of your own making and it does not exist.

Freedom means coming into the light of your endless joy and love of your brother who is your Self! It is what you already are, so it doesn't take time to experience it. It is simply yours...it is your inheritance.

But you must relinquish the material static noncreative world you made. You must let go of your desire for anything other than perfection and perfect love. Forgive your enemy...for it is YOU! There is nothing in opposition to you. You are simply denying your own happiness and freedom in every moment. Pain is a poor perspetive. Be free. Choose again. It is very simple, but you have to want it, apply it and experience it.

I love you!

Monica

Fearless

This is a painting by a dear friend of mine in New York, Monica Serra. She is an awakened mind and I went to visit her last week after several years. She is amazing. Her transformation is in her paintings and she demonstrates the love of God so beautifully in her giving of herself to all her friends and family. She is incredible and I am so grateful to have her in my life!

A few days ago, we watched the Master Teacher's video from the Presidio, San Francisco from March of 1999. My friend Monica and I together met the Master at this Reunion of the Teachers of God. It was a moment in time I will never forget. I only know that the Plan is perfect in its timing and there is indeed nothing to fear. I only know that my part is essential and I can value it above all else.

I have lost my fear. I have lost my need to learn through pain. I have been blessed with friends that are deeply committed to this awakening. I know that I had only to make one decision to awaken and that was a real choice. Everything that happened to me after that came from this one decision which reflected a willingness to be healed, to be forgiven and to release my mind, my world that I made up to keep me in hell. As a separate mind, I don't know how to forgive, but I do know how to ask that Jesus show me how. And he did. He is with me. I talk to him all through the day. I know he totally loves me and wants only my perfect happiness. I have a real intimate relationship with him and he is my guide and savior.

I know that my initiation into this brotherhood of awakened minds has occurred. I constantly feel the assistance all around me, especially when conflict arises in my daily life. I know there is a Voice in my mind that is constantly speaking to me and helping to see everything totally new. If I accept that healing in every moment, I am free. I have to be vigilant for God.

Fear is just a poor perspective and doesn't exist. When you are fearful you don't exist. It's like your mind is just on hold when you are allowing fear to rule your life. Yet, to go past it, you must let it arise in your awareness. Don't reject it. Don't resist evil, don't resist fear. Let it come into your mind and ask for help from the Great Corrector. Your mind knows how to heal itself. That is why you never need be sick or in pain. The correction device is in you. In the Urantia Book, it is called the Thought Adjuster. Each of us has this Thought Adjuster in our mind and can access it at any time. This Adjuster works all the time to help in the release of the false self.

That is what the Kingdom of Heaven is, a kingdom of conscience, of being aware of the thoughts you are thinking and the willingness to have them be corrected. When I am in pain, I cannot wait to have the correction. I move through it very fast because the pain is intolerable to me.

Can you tolerate the judgments you make? Can you tolerate wanting to change external circumstances? Are you frustrated with your relationships because they don't really satisfy you? Remember, nothing can be changed outside of your mind. Your mind gives everything you see all the meaning it has for you. Therefore, seek not to change the world, but to simply change your own mind. This is the secret to salvation. It is so simple, yet you must do it. You must be about your Father's business. Mind is singular. You are not two selves in conflict. Life is eternal and you are that life. It never ends, therfore, there is nothing to fear. Death is impossible. God created you eternal, perfect and whole. Can you accept that?

I learned this in a very practical way from the 12 Step Program which does not give me one ounce of room for self-deception. I found that in doing the steps, my mind was healed and the revelation that I was the problem in every circumstance. Even when it really seemed like someone had done something to me. The steps show me in total clarity that behind every grievance is a bunch of fear. And this fear must be uncovered to be healed. Doing the steps is simply an exercise in looking at yourself, revealing the fears, letting be corrected and then, voila! You become a brand new YOU.

I cannot believe the light and love I experience each day from following this simple program. It is astounding. Everything has changed and I am free of all that fear I had covered up. I live in the NOW. The dream has taken on a new light of love and acceptance that I never knew possible. I am here only to truly serve and love and give and be happy!

Let me know if you need anything at all. I love you with all my heart. You are part of me and we are free!

Thank you!
Blessings!
Monica

Who walks with me?

As I read today's lesson, the question at the end suggests that we ask ourselves this a thousand times. A thousand times!

I ask it in the form of a song. I feel that this is a constant prayer. A repetition of a question that cannot be answered by words alone. The feeling I experience is assurance, calm, certainty. I can imagine that I am with all the ascended masters. Watched over. Taken care of like a newborn baby by its adoring mother.

All these feelings come into my awareness when I sincerely ask the question. Do I dare do so? I have nothing else that is more important to do. There isn't anything more important than an experience of total joining with my One Self. All worldly activities seem pale compared to this desire for knowledge, for the experience of wholeness.

It isn't hard. It is just that I have to value this above all other activities of this seemingly distracting world. I don't have to be distracted by it, however. No more. I simply have to give myself to the practice.

Stay alert. Keep my focus on the inner peace, the inner state of my mind. It isn't hard, it is just different.

Let me know how this goes for you.

Blessings!

Time of Transition

We are all feeling the insertion of an amazing light factor that is the Master Teacher out of body. He is everywhere. I am everywhere. I made my amends to my partner whom I love so much the day after this occurred, and I finally realized that I was only doing it all to myself. That I am what love is. I simply cannot believe the power behind this realization.

In doing this last forgiveness, I uncovered so much fear. Behind every grievance was a list of at least four or five fears, fear of loss, fear of no communication, fear of being alone, fear of nothingness, fear of not having my dream fulfilled!

I listed them all and they were 2 1/2 pages long. So, I asked Jesus, this is too much fear for me to deal with, what is it I am really afraid of now? He said, "Your perfection." So, I let go.

I went to see a Network chiropractor I used to go to in Brooklyn. He is an amazing healer and he helped me so much when I was going throught my initial transformation and having babies in New York. Amazingly, he now lives in Viroqua, a really nice little town not far from here. I was instructed to go by myself.

This was on Tuesday, the day Dear One left, and I gave him Dear One's video called "The Successful Transformation of the Human Being". He did a spinal adjustment on me and he found within my mental field a tiny voice that was behind this fear of perfection: It said "I am not enough." And it released and I suddenly realized, I am the light of the world. I can be this now because I am not afraid. I can be whole and perfect as God created me. No more doubts!

That night, I was driving through Reedsburg just around 8pm when Dear One made his final transition. In session the next day, I made my amends to my husband and the tears would not stop flowing.

We had a 12 Step meeting last night where I shared my story, and I am feeling so much love walking around in so much light now. I cannot believe it. I watch the Old Man's videos every night before I sleep and he is with me all night long. Lots of people are coming in to receive his light. He has fulfilled his assignment. Now I must fulfill mine.

It is so incredible. But it isn't really any different than when he was here. It is just up to us to fulfill our function now. There is so much gratitude! You can watch the latest videos on themiracletimes.com!

All for now,
Love and blessings!

Monica

Light and Love

I am astounded by the opening of my heart today. It is Mother's Day and a miracle happened for me. I was given a ticket to see an opera, Lucia di Lamamoor. It was incredibly wonderful. There is tremendous joy in trusting in God. I feel so much joy just by being myself and emjoying the love for myself and my Creator. The music was so beautiful, it included the most human dramas of special relationship. It reminded me of what I just released.

I only know that the light of my mind is becoming more expansive. I am open to receive finally. Letting in the light is loving myself totally and not blocking it with self doubt or fear. I have to relearn this natural receiving of the love of God.

It is always there, but I was blocking it with idols. I was looking outside myself for love. And it failed. Every time I tried, it failed. I suck at being human! All my relationships have failed.

I am so grateful. Now I realize it was always my Self I was seeking and I have found it.

This is all just a reminder to look within and find real happiness that is eternal. It never dies. Jesus is adamant about this. He is constantly, throughout the Course in Miracles, telling me to look within and I will see him. He is there. Unless I am afraid to look within, then I won't experience his love. But, if not...there he is. And he is me. This is eternal immortal love. It flows in and outside me. I have nothing to say about it. I just open up and receive it and it is healing every cell of my body. It is healing every thought in my mind.

I am not separate from that exquisite love that pours through me and out into the Universe. I am so happy this is true. I need do nothing. I am the love that I seek.

All I had to do was uncover the fears that were showing me that all my attempts at a special relationship were doomed to fail. Of course, because the special love relationship is a working out of vengeance on the past. So, in that sense, it never works out. It is always a huge disappointment. Why? Because THE PAST IS GONE. It doesn't make sense to try to solve it by another attempt at seeking outside for the love of God. It is time to put my toys away and stop the nonsense. I am what love is. I do not need to look outside for it. Period.

I've been reading The Song of Songs and Enlightenment by Dorothy Elder. I love it because it is showing me that to truly reach enlightenment, you have to let go of your ideas of what love is and what you are. You are in a mystical marriage of Creator and Son. This is singular. You are merging again with your Creator. You were asleep and now you waking up to the total experience of the divine love that is what you are! It is so exciting. I find myself in states of utter happiness and ecstasy.

Most of the time, I am just so grateful. I can only thank God that He has ceaselessly loved me since I was created. I can be grateful that I was willing to go through anything at all to have this happen to me. And that it is all a miracle.

I just found that in looking at my fear of being alone, I simply asked Jesus, okay, I see I am full of fear, but what am I really afraid of here? Do you know what he told me? I am afraid of my perfection.

Isn't that amazing? I am only afraid of myself. And guess what? I am my Self and it is Perfect. I have nothing to say about it. I have to be myself. That's it! How simple is salvation.

Blessings!

This Need Not Be

This passage in Chapter Four of the Urtext is always helpful to me. I have to reprint it here because every word, if you let it sink into your mind, will heal you of all temptation to believe in your pain. You can apply it to someone or to yourself. It is the key to forgiveness. I like it because it doesn't give me any room for justification of my own insane judgments.

Here it is:

In every case you have thought wrongly about some Soul that God created, and are perceiving images your ego makes in a darkened glass. Think honestly what you have thought that God would NOT have thought, and what you have NOT thought that God would have you think. Search sincerely for what you have done and left undone accordingly. And then change your minds to THINK WITH GOD'S.

How do you change your mind? Just think a new thought. Oh, I am wrong here. I am in pain, so I must be wrong. Period. I want to know what is true about myself and my brother. It is a challenge, but it also is easier than you think.

This may seem hard to you, but it is MUCH easier than trying to think AGAINST it. Your mind IS one with God's. Denying this and thinking otherwise has held your ego together, but has literally split your mind. As a loving brother, I am deeply concerned with your minds, and urge you to follow my example as you look at yourselves and at each other and see in both the glorious Creations of a glorious Father.

I often wonder why the pain is so persistent. But it is just habitual. I actually am enjoying it. I need to decide I don't like what I feel, and make another choice. Here is how Jesus expresses it:

When you are sad, KNOW that this NEED NOT BE. Depression ALWAYS arises ultimately from a sense of being deprived of something you want and do not have. KNOW you are deprived of nothing, except by your own decisions, and then decide otherwise.

When you are anxious, KNOW that all anxiety comes from the capriciousness of the ego, and NEED NOT BE. You can be as vigilant AGAINST the ego's dictates as FOR them.

When you feel guilty, KNOW that your ego has indeed violated the laws of God, but YOU have not. Leave the sins of the ego to me. That is what the Atonement is for. But until you change your mind about those your ego has hurt, the Atonement cannot release you. As long as you feel guilty, your ego is in command, because only the ego CAN experience guilt. THIS NEED NOT BE.

Well, there you have it. In a nutshell. Any emotion that you can conjure up, is addressed in this passage. Jesus really knows you. And now, because you are on this journey without distance, there is no reason to cling to old habitual thinking. There is every reason to let it go. This is not difficult, it is just a completely different way to use the power of your mind. Instead of aligning with falsity, you align with God.

Let me know if this helps you today!

Blessings!

Letting Go of Idols

This is a tough teaching. I have to admit that to let go of all my ideas of what I think will complete myself is a major challenge. There are no degrees to this. I have to accept it as a total solution or it is nothing.

The human mind is always limited in its perception. Yet I have to look at this idea...can the limitless be limited? Can my idea of lack be fulfilled? The problem is the limited thought itself. I have to be undone in the very first thought I had about myself in separation. The idea that I am lacking something is the problem.

Jesus turned stones into bread by knowing that the bread was already given. A need is already met. He just gave thanks for it and it appeared before him. Cause and effect are not apart. They are ONE.

This is from Chapter 30, The New Beginning, Beyond All Idols:

Decide for idols and you ask for loss. Decide for truth and everything is yours. It is not form you seek. What form can be a substitute for God the Father's Love? What form can take the place of all the love in the Divinity of God the Son? What form can replace you? You as a complete idea in the Mind of God? Yet, here you seek for idols to do just that.

When you decide upon the form you want, you lose the understanding of its purpose. So you see your will within the idol, thus reducing it to a specific form. Yet this could never be your will, because what shares in all creation cannot be content with small ideas and little things.

See how total this is? It is about you, deciding to be who you are...who God created. Accept that and you are saved. It is just acceptance that allows you to remain as God created you since You are That now. You can be whole. Yet, to truly know it, on every level, physical, emotional, and mental, you must let go of your idols. I don't care what it is. I don't care about the form. Any idea, any substitute for God's Love is your idea that something outside of you will complete you. That is insanity on its most basic level.

Are you afraid to lose these little things you love and cherish? Be honest. If you think you need it, you are cherishing it and are lost already.

Let go of the form, let go of wanting the form to change. See beyond form. That is the great challenge. Because then, you would see its unreality and all your problems would simply vanish. You would see perfection all around you and you would be IT.

Guess what? YOU ARE. Why is this so difficult then? Because you deny it. You have all power and you put things in place of God all the time. You reject God and say, "I want it thus!" without even realizing it.

Behind the search for every idol lies the yearning for completion. Wholeness has no form because it is unlimited.

Yes! You want completion. That is what you seek. And seek you must. Because you are simply asking for what is your right. You do know of your perfection no matter how dim the possibility seems that you could be the light of the world. You are already this light, but you are looking at form and missing it. You see light or darkness.

This is the purpose of an idol; that you will not look beyond it, to ths source of the belief that you are incomplete.

You see, it's just a trick you are playing on yourself. You think you need something but you are already the THING YOU SEEK. It is YOU. You in the reality of love, of wholeness, of perfection.

I can see it now, but a few days ago, I was in a state of letting go and it was totally painful. The conversion of my limited mind is intense! Don't think it isn't so. In many moments of deep release, I am sometimes in so much pain it is astounding. My mind goes into ideas of how to relieve the pain...run away! Drink alcohol! Find another relationship! I am bereft of my own inner state of love and calm.

Then, I ask for help from a brother who is in this process and reach out. I am always assured that this is exactly where I need to be for a moment. Not to dwell on it, but to allow it to simply happen through me. I have to allow myself to become totally defenseless. I have to go through this without any hesitation.

It works. The next moment I am free and I can't remember what all that emotion was about. "I am never upset for the reason I think" becomes an experience.

It never is the idol that you want. But what you think it offers you, you want indeed and have the right to ask for. Nor could it be possible it be denied. Your will to be complete is but God's Will, and this is given you by being His. God knows not form.

God knows not form! He cannot answer you in terms that have no meaning. You see, the dream of form is the limitation itself, it is the idea that you are lacking something. What are you lacking? Everything!

This is a teaching of totality. You are nothing or everything. You are illusion, or truth itself. That is why books are not helpful unless they point to this experience of relinquishment. You have to do it to have it! Be it.

Thank you for your dedication to the truth of you.

Completion is the function of God's Son. He has no need to seek for it at all. Beyond all idols stands his holy will be but what he is. For more than whole is meaningless. Wholeness. Perfection. Glory. Grandeur. What God created. Not what you have made of him. You cannot change perfection, although you think you did.

It is simply a dream of lack, of suffering. It is not real, yet when you are in the throes of your inner conversion, you are in a release. Don't judge it, let it be whatever it is. Hate everyone, hate yourself totally and just let go. All this is being undone in these intense moments.

What is not whole cannot make whole. But what is really asked for cannot be denied. So, ask and the door is opened. Seek and you shall find. But be sure of what you seek. Anything less than perfection is asking for death, for hell. I know how hard this can be, but you have the courage to go through it. I know because I found it within myself. I am not different from you. I want truth, I want peace...I want to know myself as I truly am. I will not settle for anything less.

Thoughts seem to come and go. Yet all this means is that you are sometimes aware of them, and sometimes not.

The denial is just that, denying you the thoughts and feelings underneath all the pretense that you are JUST FINE. That you can solve your problem. An unremembered thought is born again to you when it returns to your awareness. Yet it did not die when you forgot it. It was always there, but you were unaware of it. You were simply unaware. Now you are becoming aware of every thought underneath the denial. This is what conversion is. Letting dark thoughts, thoughts of lack and pain come to the surface and allowing them to be released. No one can do it for you.

Yet the Thought God holds of you is perfectly unchanged by your forgetting.

I was recently told that I don't have to go through the emotions of this, I can just change my mind and it will all be undone. Theoretically, that is true. Jesus says in the Urtext, you will feel all this pain but THIS NEED NOT BE. I do understand that it is my own attachment to pain that is the problem. But I also know that personally, in my process, deep emotional release is included.

I have never been able to do it any other way. Yes, it gets easier, and things release a lot quicker, but I cannot deny my emotions. They are simply there underneath all the denial. They show me where I need to look. I allow them and go through them without defense and they release. I am free when I don't avoid any thought, any idea. I don't mean that I dwell on the pain, but I have to be willing to allow feelings to come and go. I am not afraid of my emotions. I don't know how to do this without emotion. To me, that is just more denial. This is a very personal experience and no one can tell you how it should be.

The Thoughts of God are far beyond all change, and shine forever. They wait for welcome and remembering. The Thought God holds of you is like a star, unchangeable in an eternal sky. So high in Heaven is it set that those outside of Heaven know not it is there. Yet still and white and lovely will it shine through all eternity. There was no time it was not there; no instant when its light grew dimmer or less perfect ever was. Who knows the Father knows this light, for He is the eternal sky that holds it safe, forever lifted up and anchored sure. Its perfect purity does not depend on whether it is seen on earth or not. The sky embraces it and softly holds it in its perfect place, which is as far from earth as earth from Heaven. It is not the distance nor the time that keeps this star invisible to earth. But those who seek for idols cannot know the star is there.

Thank you for all your light and recognition that you want this. For this you came. To accept within you the way out of hell and to be released into your divine perfection that is all around you is no little dream. It is magnificent. Thank you.

Blessings!