Thursday, February 19, 2009

Simply Do This

In times of uncertainty, this is what helps me the most:

Simply do this: Be still, and lay aside all thoughts of what you are and what God is; all concepts you have learned about the world; all images you hold about yourself. Empty your mind of everything it thinks is either true or false, or good or bad, of every thought it judges worthy, and all the ideas of which it is ashamed. Hold onto nothing. Do not bring with you one thought the past has taught, nor one belief you ever learned before from anything. Forget this world, forget this course, and come with wholly empty hands unto your God.

Can you do it? Can you lay aside all false ideas about yourself and the world? Can you relinquish all ideas of lack, of littleness? Can you have faith in One Who Knows you and knows you perfectly?

This is the great challenge of our time. Will you go on denying that there is a God who loves you totally? Will you put your faith in the temporal? Or in the eternal?

Time is a sleight of hand. It isn't even real. You are making up time to prolong your inevitable demise. You cannot die. You are not a body. All fear stems from this one idea: that you can annihilate yourself. And it's simply not true.

You are an eternal loving being created by an all loving God. He would never allow you to suffer pain, sickness or death. Love knows not of fear or death. He does not know of what you have made of yourself. You are perfect and whole as God created you. You could not alter yourself.

You are asleep in a dream, that is all. It is time to awaken and be free.

I have been challenged to my core. I have experienced deep losses. So have you. There is no difference, except perhaps I am totally aware that I am dreaming. And in this dream, the only thing I need do is let go. Forgive and be forgiven. Yet, I don't even know how to do that. The only thing required of me is a little willingness. This willingness is even provided me by the Holy Spirit. I have to sit still, stop the worrying, stop the incessant need to know what is happening to me. I don't know. I just know there is a God of love that I can trust totally with all my being.

I must let go absolutely. Until then, I am nothing. I am afraid, selfish, self-seeking and dishonest. The real program of healing the mind that is the Course in Miracles in application, is the 12 Step Program. This program has helped me immeasurably with my awakening. It brought me to my KNEES. Where I truly belong, of course.

I begin each day there and I know that making that decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God, is everything. I can do nothing of myself. But I can let go and let God. This is so important and has gotten me through the deepest, darkest moments of my journey. I know there is a God because I have put my total trust in Him to heal me of my dream of separation from Him.

Do I have doubts at times? You bet. Do I know what to do when I have them? Yes. Get on my knees and ask to be shown. I don't have to know what to do about tomorrow. I just have to know about right now. This is critical. Because all my fear has to do with the future. I don't know how I will pay my bills, I don't know if I should sell my house. I don't know if I should go back to school, find a new job...you fill in the blank. You see? Ask for help and it will be given in the moment you are most afraid. Especially when you think you need a solution to a problem right now.

If I am patient, I can trust that everything will be shown to me. I have to get really quiet, stop my questioning, let myself not know everything for a moment. In the now, I am totally uncertain, and in the uncertainty, I am free to let God direct me. I am safe because I am trusting in my higher power to direct me in all things. This is how it works. I feel like a little kid, who knows that my parent is with me and is taking perfect care of me. Even when I am afraid.

This is a miraculous occurrence. It doesn't really have anything to do with my ideas or my thoughts about myself. It has only to do with release. It has only to do with loving myself, my enemy. Serving my brother. Taking care of myself in the moment. Being good to myself. All fear is attack. It is an attack upon myself. I can stop attacking myself, surely, if I so choose.

I am sure about my purpose here, which is to wake up and be healed and let God be God. Then and only then can I be of service to those who still suffer. Working my 12th Step has shown me that I am not the center of the universe. That you are. You, a representative of God, are my savior and helper. I can rely on God, I can rely on your help and I can know that you are not separate from me. I know you are me.

If I harbor hateful thoughts about anyone, anyone at all, I am in so much pain, I cannot stand it. Love is the answer and forgiveness is the key. But how to forgive when it seems like someone has wronged you? Here it is: It's you. You have that thought, you have made it up. You are responsible for the cleanup. So, be about it. Let go your thoughts about the other guy. Has God changed His Mind about him, or about you? Get on your KNEES.

Ask yourself this. Who walks with me? Who is my guide, my protector, my friend?
Communicate with this mind. You are being led on this journey out of time, out of space...to a place of perfect peace. And it is not in the future. It is right NOW.

In all the years I have been on this path, I have always found that my own ideas are the problem. It is where I hold onto the idea of trying to be safe here, in a world of death. But safety comes from knowing WHO I AM.

When its really dark, I get on my KNEES. Ask to be shown. Everything I need to know is revealed. It is a miracle. In spite of your misgivings, your doubts, your fears, you are healed.

Love is letting go of fear. And anger, doubt, faithlessness, is all part of fear. It is not different. That is why I love the 12 Steps. It forces me to look at my fear. To reveal the darkest thoughts I hold onto to myself. Then in the relinquishment of my ideas about myself, I miraculously healed. If I don't look at these fears, these ideas of pain, I am still protecting them, so I still want them.

I don't like being in pain. I don't like feeling that I am all alone here. I am sick and tired of it. So, I do it. I get on my knees and ask for help.

But if I look straight at these fears, they are released, and I am undone. Doors open up. I find myself in a new place. It feels unfamiliar, but it is totally happy and joyful. Peace is joy. You are happy for no reason at all. It is natural to you.

Be free to be yourself. Open up. Let go all your ideas. All your fears of future dread. Just open up to let God in. He is real. He is your protector in all circumstances.

I love you and hope this helps.

Blessings!
Monica

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

The Current Economic Crisis

In time and space there is always some kind of crisis going on. Have you ever noticed? There is always something in this limited reference that reminds me that I am in hell. If this is your reality, it IS hell. It is ruled by fear. And if you are like me, you cannot escape your reactions to it. My reactions are first hand. I was recently working for a major corporation and my department, although it was very successful and productive, was terminated suddenly.

My first response was disbelief, then laughter and shock and all those emotions you just can't imagine unless it is happening to you. I really didn't expect this and whammo! I was unemployed.

So, it isn't fun to have to go through all these emotions. But, it is how I awaken from the dream. I don't have any control over what is happening here. I am constantly being shown this. I really don't know what to do about it either. I have to live honestly and openly. My reactions are just like everyone else's: rage, fear, disbelief, distrust, helplessness, and finally all I can do is let go.

I have had many moments of loss in my life. I lost custody of my children, I have been through two divorces. And now, I realize that there is nothing that I can count on in this world. The only thing I know that is true is Jesus and his teaching of love and forgiveness.

I have to forgive myself this entire dream of death. I have to or I am lost. Losing something is like a death and you just have to go right through the blackness of it to be free. You cannot change it, you can only embrace the experience and know that it is a really important lesson. It is teaching me what is real and what is false.

Any idea of security or safety is not to be found in this world. Of course not, it is a world where everything dies. So, what security could there be here? I know you may entertain this as a possibility, that this is life. But it isn't. Life doesn't end. Life is eternal, therefore, this is not life. It's real simple.

So what is life? Where can you find it? The Kingdom is within you. There is a place of total safety and security. It is not of this world and you have to look within to find it. It requires that you begin your awakening.

Do the lessons of A Course in Miracles. Really apply them to your life. For me, it was the way out of hell. I don't know how anyone else gets through experiences like this, I only know how I do.

This experience is a blessing. I may not know this when I'm afraid, but I do know that this is not a real place and I can depart by letting go of my thoughts about it. This is not my reality. My thoughts create this world. I can release my thoughts and I am free. This is the only way out.

Blessings!

Monica

Sunday, January 4, 2009

All Time is Going On NOW

It is an amazing idea that time is not sequential and all time is going on all the time. Think about it. Didn't it take you years to learn to tell time? Didn't you find it difficult to imagine time going in one direction? Wasn't it strange that people kept asking "what time is it?" As a child, you had no concept of time. NOW was the only time. You had to be conditioned to learn ideas about time.

You are learning that to get back to that childlike innocence, you have to let go of the idea of sequential time. You read books like "The Power of Now" and you feel something within you get excited. You have a chance at a real experience beyond time. Beyond your tiny little existence on this planet in a body. You have a shot at a new beginning, an awakening to what is real.

If you can entertain the idea that all time is going on right now, all time lines you can imagine are happening simultaneously, you are beginning to feel the reality of life being beyond memory. Your constructs of this tiny existence are all based upon your coming here, being a body, becoming totally conditioned by human ideas, and then finally terminating yourself. If that still seems reasonable to you, great. But to me it made no sense.

I could not imagine why I would have to die if God is Love, if Love is eternal and I am what Love is. God creates eternally, right? God doesn't die...so how can I die? I am created in His image! I am not a body. I am free.

My mind is all powerful, because it is the Mind of God. It isn't limited at all by my insane ideas of being a body on planet earth. It is infinite and beautiful. I am as God created me. I am perfect and whole. Everything He creates is perfect. My only function is to accept this and I am free. And I free you along with me because you are an idea. I think about you, and I get ecstatic knowing I am no different from you. I am whole, and therefore every thought I have is whole.

I cannot separate myself from my thoughts. They are in my Mind. My mind is all powerful, it is totally creative. The only problem I ever have is I forgot this was true. I thought I could make up ideas and they would be true. But I couldn't establish truth. Truth is already true. Death, or termination is not true. I couldn't make it true. It is a big lie. Just like time. Time has no end, therefore, there is no time.

Eternal life is eternal. You cannot die. You cannot exist as a body in time. It is totally impossible. But the problem you have is that you think you are a body and you have to exist separate from everyone and everything. Until what? Until you die.

Not true. You are making this up to keep yourself from the eternal love of God and your reality. It is time to stop this silly insane game you are playing with yourself. Wake up to reality, love is real! It is eternal and therefore, so are you! How do I know this?

I was taken out and given a new reference. I experienced myself as a whole, loving being of light and love. And I came back in to share it with you. I cannot be this body in time and space. It is impossible.

My mind is free, because I cannot go back into a world of separation knowing what I know. It is not possible. So, I have no choice but to experience love and extend that love continually. A continuity of eternal love. My mind extends naturally into consciousness. Actually, my mind is what the consciousness is. It is all inclusive. So, my reality is your reality. And you cannot continue to deny it much longer. We are One.

When things around you seem to be getting darker and you can't make sense of your existence, this is a very good sign. It is the beginning of your awakening. You are beginning to question the idea of your existence on planet earth. You are beginning to question how life can end. How could God, who is all powerful could possibly create a world of pain, sickness and death?

Good. It is a very good sign. Your time is up. You are beginning to have a dramatic shift in your perception of everyone and everything. And You will discover that you are eternal. It is inevitable. Your life is totally meaningful once you awaken. Until then, it is totally meaningless. Your mind determines what is meaningful to you. But you cannot establish meaning, really. God is meaning, He has already established it. And you are a whole part of His mind.

I love you.

Blessings!
Monica

Love to Give

My only function here is to be happy. Is that difficult? At times, yes! I cannot be happy if you are not. I have to extend my light, my joy into your mind, because you are me!

I have been in the healing arts for a long time and have trained my mind and have been miraculously healed of every disease, including depression and anxiety. I only know that I asked for help all along the way and the answers kept coming in. All forms of lack, littleness and fear are being removed from my mind. I came to offer this healing light energy to the world. I don’t have any other function.

I love A Course in Miracles. It is what healed me entirely of my dream of death. I know that I am eternal and therefore so are you. I cannot continue to pretend that this is not true. Human minds are really pathetic in that they always misuse their mind. It is time to really become aware that surrender is the key. A relinquishment of my ideas is how I give myself to the totality of the experience of oneness, of love, of divinity.

Thank God there is a loving God who knows not of death, sickness, suffering or fear. He knows not of it. He has already healed your mind of this idea. Your job is just to accept it. Can you accept that you are perfect, whole and complete...a perfect reflection of His Love?

Wayne Dyer has been teaching this on PBS recently and I am always amazed at the simplicity of the message. I love the fact that only truth is true. Now seems to be the beginning of a shift for the planet. It is time. I love knowing that the message of divine love is the one thing the human consciousness must finally embrace. It is the Answer to all the conceivable problems of human existence.

My suffering and depression led me to A Course in Miracles. It is really amazing how it occurred. It is a simple story. Basically, Jesus woke me up out of my dream of death, fear and anxiety. I had had enough pain. I asked for help and I was given A Course in Miracles. This is demonstrated beautifully in the movie: A Course in Miracles Unleashed. If you have a chance, watch it.

Love came and got me and showed me that all this was an illusion and that I didn’t belong in an illusion. It was dramatic and ecstatic and I left this world. This is really only one experience of a continuing reunion I have with God and all my brothers. I connect into the ONE MIND all the time. I feel more and more in love every moment. I cannot believe this has happened and I am so grateful.

I can only give of myself right now totally and feel this love flowing through me. Can you feel it? I am here. There are many awakened brothers on the planet now bringing in a lot of light. I hope you find your connection to this light and write to me. I am so grateful that you have found this light and are learning that it is all you want. IT IS EVERYTHING.

Jesus led me into this light along with the Master Teacher and many awakened minds who are with me. Let me know if you need any help. I can only give, because God only gives. Giving is the only way to experience abundance, pure, full abundant love that is what you are. Give, give and give more than you feel comfortable giving. It is the key to happiness.

You can only give to yourself, there is only ONE MIND… so give totally and you will know who you are. Keep giving to everyone and everything. Don’t worry about the future, or how you will survive. You will be given all the support you need if you only give. You will discover yourself and your loved ones all around you are only waiting for you to give yourself to them!

What have you got to lose? You cannot lose if you always give. You receive as you give. You are ONE MIND. There is no loss because God is love and you are that love. I know it seems simple. IT IS! Because God is total simplicity. There are no complications in love. You complicate it. You put demands on it. Just let it be what it is and you will be free. Just be yourself and give and you will know who you are.

Love and blessings!

Monica

Saturday, December 13, 2008

The End of Sacrifice

The Course claims that Christmas is the end of sacrifice. Isn't that amazing? The idea of sacrifice is such in innate part of the ego's curriculum, that it is hard to imagine it isn't real. I grew up Catholic, and the ideas of sacrifice were such a huge part of this religion, that I have spent years looking at these ideas and surrendering them to the Holy Spirit. Is it really possible to live and not to feel that sacrifice is asked of me?

Sacrifice comes from an idea that you are not whole and that you have to give up something to be whole. Isn't it strange, that an all loving, all-encompassing, omniscient, complete and divine God has to ask something of you? Why? Isn't He complete? Then He doesn't need me to do anything at all. So then the question arises, so if God is complete and whole, what am I?

I must be part of Him. If He created me, I must be in His Mind. If so, then there is no separation from Him at all. There never was, I was just making it all up.

The fundamental teaching is very simple. God is real. God is Love. God extended His Mind and had a beautiful, whole, complete and glorious idea...and that was you.

You forgot for a moment and thought you had usurped the power of God and made up a small, tiny you that inhabits a physical form and feels trapped in it. This is the ultimate sacrifice... you already did it to yourself.

So, this Christmas think about that a while. The only thing God wants of you is that you become yourself again. That you experience yourself as His loving Son who knows no fear, no anxiety, no cares, no worries and are completely safe. God loves you and knows you perfectly well. There is no need for concern about anyone or anything. You are in the Heaven where His love resides. Heaven is all around you and you are IT.

This is a wake up call. It is time to awaken to the truth about you. You did not really do anything at all in your dream of separation from God. You only thought you did. Now it is time to accept that fact.

God is real. You are a real thought in His Mind. Your little life on earth is not your reality. You are simply dreaming of exile and it is time to come on home. Wake up to reality.

Come fly with me! Life is not existence on planet earth where you suffer and die. That is you in sacrifice and this Christmas, let's celebrate the end of that silly idea.

OK?

I love you! Merry Christmas!

Monica

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Coming Into the Light

Everywhere I look I read about the idea that there is only One Mind. This idea stems from the fact of singularity, or One Creator. I love it. I don't know if this means anything to a human, split mind, but when you accept total responsibility for every thought you think, every experience you have, suddenly it begins to dawn on you that you are all there is. Your perspective from objectivity is that there are separate bodies, separate people in the world all acting separately. Until you accept that you are the one projecting all this imagery out from the visual cortex of the back of your brain, you do believe you are seeing multiple people and places.

To find that you are the dreamer, you alone are dreaming this world and all your experiences are the result of your dreaming a separate dream, is a big shock. It rarely happens without some sort of breakdown or realization or disaster within your life that brings you into the admission that you have no idea what is going on.

Your attempts at solving the problem of separation finally bring you into an awareness that life in this state is totally chaotic, because you actually have no control over the dream and what the figures in your dream do. They are all self-contained, as are you. Loss, death, illness, pain all enter into it and seem to be your reality.

For me, I finally saw that even with all my losses and successes as a self-identity on planet earth, I was still separate! This idea was excruciating to me. I begged for help. I asked my savior to please help me! And the immediate response was loud and clear. "Follow instructions." I listened, I got really quiet and I began to hear chanting in my mind so loud and clear it was unmistakable. I went to an Ashram for 11 days and released so much pain, guilt and loss, that I was finally released.

After that, my experiences deepened. My life changed dramatically. I was given a video of the Master Teacher a month or two later. I felt him take me into a state of mind that was completely not here. I found myself in a lot of light energy and my body seemed to be unable to resist any of it. I was taken out of this realm entirely for a long period of time.

This single experience showed me that all that all my petty ideas of what thought I was were completely wrong, and that my life indeed did have a purpose. I am here to bring in lots of light and heal and forgive. I am, indeed the light of the world.

Jesus has always been with me since I was a little child. I had no fear of him and felt as a child that he helped me a lot. Light experiences used to infuse me with his love and I felt so happy just being alone and quiet in my room.

So, as an adult, my whole purpose has been to follow in his direction, to be led into a new realm, into the light that is our reality. This is now all I want and whenever I feel disheartened or confused, I remember that the light is the healing agency. And I am that light. You are that light.

You can erase all memories of pain, loss, conflict and death. These are simply stories you have made up and have been living over and over again.

This premise is essential: you must accept that you are totally responsible for your dream...all of it. That way, you can truly find out that your purpose here is not of you, it comes from out of time, if you will. And your job is to simply accept this role, this responsibility. It really doesn't matter if you believe it or not. You don't have to, you simply are asked to apply the lessons. Apply healing love and forgiveness to every situation in which you find yourself. That way, you will soon discover that you are the light of the world.

I have been reading a book called Zero Limits by Joe Vitale and Ihaleakala Hew Len. This is all about accepting total responsibility for everything you see or think. It is about healing the memories, cleaning or clearing them from your subconscious. I love it. I have been applying this to my life for 20 years now by way of the Workbook of A Course in Miracles. I love that this message is coming into fruition in lots of ways now and people are realizing how powerful it is.

The loveliness of this book and its message is really needed right now. I wonder if Dr. Hew Len has heard of A Course in Miracles, but it doesn't really matter. All I know is that as I apply the simple process he prescribes in this book: I love you, I'm sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you!.

Do this and all your frustration and problems, which are just memories of loss, or lack, can be released instantly. You begin to feel that the source of you is Divine Love. There is nothing to fear because You are everything! You are the light of the world! You are healed and you can heal. This is the way out of the dream in its entirety.

It is such a simple message and application of the Course: I keep this on my desk at work: Ceeport. Clear, erase, erase, return to port. Port is zero point. Divine Love, in other words. I am currently selling vacation packages to people to give them a new experience of their lives where they actually get away and have some fun and take a break from their lives of working all the time. Amazing, 30% of Americans don't even take vacations. My sales started going up now that I am applying this. I constantly say to people, I love you, forgive me, I'm sorry, Thank you! Not out loud, but silently before I call them and after they hang up. I never get frustrated now when they don't buy, I just bless them. I feel great because I am just reminding myself of who I am. I am singular. There is nothing outside of me!

I only want to extend divine love to everyone and everything. It is the only thing worth valuing. Money, success, kids, all of it is great, but really, I just want to be free from the constraints of a physical existence on planet earth. I don't want anything from anyone, I just want to extend, to give, to let everyone know there is a God of love and you can just take a chance on LOVE. Not only that, but it is my only function here. I am here to be that light and to give and let go of my own silly ideas of death. Because, truly if you are as God created you, you cannot die.

No, you can't. Don't think you can, because you can't. My mother seemingly died three years ago, and I have been in more communication with her now than when she was in her body. I feel her around me and I talk to her all the time. This is real. We are not bodies!

The Master Teacher released his body in May of this year, and I feel him closer than ever before. Now, it is totally up to me to stay in communication with him and with Jesus and stay on track. I have to. This is my goal, my purpose and my life. Divine love is eternal and cannot die. That is a fact. You are coming into the light of realization that this is an illusion of death. You cannot die. The light of God's love shows up and dissolves your petty ideas of separation. It cannot not.

So, I really hope this helps. I just want you to know I love you and let me know how I can help!

Blessings,

Monica

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

How Simple the Solution

Well, I was reading this morning in The Master Teacher's talk called History is Only You, and it states here "The most valuable single thing that you can ever come to know in your awakening process is that you are causing what is occurring outside you..not a little bit of it, but all of it.

...You actually think that things that are occurring outside of you are beyond your own control. If that is true, there is indeed no God, and there could never be.

You have forgotten that you are dreaming this and it has absolutely no reality. And that's difficult for you to look at. So what do you do? You hold inside of you all of these incredible notions and emotions and manifestations of illusions and consciousnesses and hates and loves and fears and guilt. And you tie it all up down inside of you because literally that is what your constitution is: limited selfness. Who is the anti-Christ? Who but you? You , standing separate from the totality of your absolute truthfulness in consciousness."

Wow. So, that's a very fundamental idea. That you are the cause of the entire problem. And you are therefore, also the solution. But you have to have the experience of this, not just entertain the ideas and think about them as an intellectual exercise of some sort.

Ego mind is you. You as the cause of all the suffering and pain and death on the earth. You must surrender this now. Because it is only getting worse. You must undergo your black hole experience. Know that you cannot possibly find the solution outside of you, because you are causing all the problems of the world. No one will listen to you, no one wants to know that they are the cause, yet, until you accept it, you are just a victim. You are actually nothing.

You really think that you can communicate with human beings. Everyone is in his own bubble of associated thoughts about himself. You cannot know what to say to him. He is a projected image of your own mind. Can you stand it? Can you work out this problem and solve it yourself? Go ahead and try.

I promise you this is a dream and you are the dreamer. It is time to wake up to the simple fact that all your fears, all your death ideas are in you alone. No one else is causing you to think this way.

I was worrying the other day about money and a voice said to me, "Stop this now. You are misusing your mind." It was a very important thing. Because I do worry out of habit. I think I have a problem, and boom...there I go worrying again. But the worry is intolerable. Finally, I hate it. I cannot stand to be fearful. It feels horrible. I am totally denying God when I am in fear. There is no God when I am afraid. I have just denied him and denied my own reality in that moment. Fear is insidious, but I have to stop giving into fear thoughts. My mind is all powerful, whatever I think extends. So, if I give up fear, immediately, I find myself happy again.

The voice was reminding me that I have already awakened. I don't have to worry about anything any more. I will be told exactly what to do and when, what to say to someone, what to do in every circumstance.

I just love being free to think a different way. To let go of fear, and come into the certainty that I am as God created me. I am not a body. I am free. I do not have to be in this world at all.

I teleport all the time. My mind is free and I have no limits.

If this happened to me it is happening to you. Because you are a thought in my mind. Jesus resurrected and solved the whole thing for us. My resurrrection is yours. Just accept it and you will find yourself happy beyond belief.

Happiness is your natural state of mind. You do not have to worry about anything ever! You are not limited to this body, to this physical idea of you as a separate thing. You are MIND. And MIND is total, whole and unlimited.

God is the Mind with which I think.

Be happy and free and know you are perfect as God created you!

Love and blessings!
Monica