I love the idea that miracles are happening all the time. I know this to be true. But what are miracles? Simply stated, a miracle is a correction. A shift in perception, from darkness to light.
What is darkness? Fear. I find that when I am afraid of something, it will usually happen. Because I am thinking it, I am causing it. I am afraid of loss, I imagine that I can lose something, perhaps someone I love. This is my own thinking that is doing this. And I experience it. My mind is all powerful, there is nothing opposing it. So I experience the loss. Total loss is what death is. "I die daily", as the great St. Paul stated.
I don't avoid it, I go right into the idea, and let the whole thing completely happen. And then, here I am living, I am breathing, and I find that nothing is really different. I am still myself. I'm not fooled by my thoughts any more. If you really knew that everything, every idea is just a simple thought in your mind, you would not be afraid. You are only afraid of your thoughts. You are only thinking that some thoughts are good, some are bad. But all of them are in YOUR mind. You must accept that. They are not external to you. Your thinking is the problem itself.
If I have an idea of loss for a moment, say I have no idea how I will pay my bills. Oh no, what will happen? Well, who knows. But if I really let go into a possibility of losing my possessions, I feel that loss totally. I let them all go. The house, the furniture, my car, my cats...all of it. I will be without those things. Then, I realize, wow...I'm set free.
How does this happen? I don't know. But I only know that for me it is the only way to true lasting freedom. I will not allow the idea that I need possessions to be happy. It is simply not true. Being without them, I will still be me.
Waking up is an ordeal. If you are afraid something will happen, let it. Just let it happen. Your worst nightmare. Imagine it now, let it occur within your mind. OK. It is happening. I am totally bankrupt. I am totally alone...no relationships. Does this make you afraid? Good. Let it make you totally afraid.
Wow...now what?
I start to breathe a sigh of relief. All those ideas are just ideas. I can entertain them for a moment. Then I let them go as well.
Love is underneath all your thoughts of loss. All your fear. There is so much love there, and you won't experience it or let it in until you release the fear. I had a friend recently go into a great deal of fear in my house. I could not tolerate this amount of fear. I simply made it clear that this is not okay. You must let go of your fear. You are very insane when you let fear run your life. That is just not an option any longer. It is insane and there is no excuse for it.
I am amazed at the tenacity of the ego to always defend itself. If you could release the fear, you would be fine. The attack upon myself is over. After she left, she called the next day to apologize.
All I said was, you know exactly what you are doing...cut it out! Stop feeding the fear. Be yourself. You know that love is the answer. Love yourself now. Have the courage to live a different life now. To become God dependent. It is time to grow up and stop the madness.
Everyone has the power to be vigilant for God or for fear. It is entirely up to you. I cannot help you. You must do it yourself. You need to train your mind. No one can do it for you.
Miracles are happening all the time, but are you letting them happen to you?
Blessings!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
Forgiveness Is My Function
My forgiveness is the means by which the light of the world finds expression through me. My forgiveness is the means by which I become aware of the light of the world in me. My forgiveness is the means by which the world is healed, together with myself. Let me then, forgive the world, that it may be healed along with me.
What does it really mean to forgive the world? Can I forgive something I constructed? In this lesson, I learn that the means is always forgiveness. The means to the goal...what goal? Freedom and happiness. Eternal life.
I cannot forgive something I think is hurting me. I have to let go first of the idea that anything is outside of me or of my mind. I have to accept causation...that I made this world. Then, and only then, is there hope for me.
If I look to someone else to save me, or to help me, or to condemn me...that is still me. I am still doing that. So, I have to accept that first I am MIND. I am all MIND, indeed I am the Mind of God thinking. Next, I accept that if there is conflict in this MIND that I am, it cannot be true. Why? Because God's Mind is never, ever in conflict. The Mind of God is truth, happiness, and joy and total freedom.
Any idea that states that God knows of your conflict is therefore false. He knows only that you are asleep. He has already provided the means for your awakening...but it is up to you to accept this means, apply it and be free. You have to become very certain of this, that you are responsible for your awakening. All the help is there, but you have to use it.
You have A Course in Miracles, use it! It is your ticket out of hell. I knew it the instant I found it. I became so elated, I wanted to tell everyone about it. But, it was just for me. No one else really cared. I was all alone in my dream, looking for the answer. I had been in a depression for six months. I had hit bottom. And there was the answer. In black and white print! I couldn't believe it.
We have been at this for 40,000 years, dear ones. The answer is now here and the means are provided. You only need to apply it, use it, and free yourself of the idea that you could find freedom in bondage.
Forgiveness, I learned the hard way. I had to see that my construct of a world, where someone else can take something from me, where I can lose the things I love, where I can hate or be hated, is all going on inside me. It wasn't easy. I wanted to blame someone else. I was angry at God a lot! I couldn't believe that if I was on a spiritual path that things would not work out my way!
How arrogant I was. I really thought I could manipulate God. It was so insane. But that is what I was thinking at the time. When I finally saw that I had constructed the entire scenario, that I was indeed the problem itself, I died. I had a moment of realization that God is in charge, and I have nothing to say about anything here. I had no control over anything. I only had to surrender and let go. I could not forgive, however. And I knew it. I had to ask Jesus to forgive this whole thing for me. Because to me, it was real.
Guess what? He did. He sent me people who told me it was all okay, and they set me free of my guilt. Only then could I see the perfection of my story and that all of it was a set up, to set me free. I had set it up for my total dissolutionment, and my total freedom.
I failed entirely. And I was so happy! Forgiveness is a result of letting go of the story, of the drama of your own nightmare. I had to forget it, to really release it. But to do that, I had to see the perfection of it, and then see it all worked. I had set my goal of freedom and the drama played out. In the meantime, I was in the throes of my awakening. It was excruciating. But I knew that I had to apply this Course and really do it!
The details of the story are quite irrelevant. What is important is the realization that I am still here in the same body and yet, I woke up! My drama is no different than anyone's really. It involved everyone I loved, including my kids, my ex-husband, my family, and all my dear friends who supported me all the way. I had made a decision to be free and this is how it worked. You must uncover everything that is binding you and let it go! I had to get in there and play out my story and let it undo me, so that I could experience what is real. Was it hard? Absolutely. But in Chapter 4 of the Course, there is a section where Jesus describes that all you have constructed is pain, and THIS NEED NOT BE. He gives total assurance that he knows all about it, and is giving you the solution. It doesn't have to be painful, it's just that is usually is so. Because the emotional attachment to what you have constructed is enormous. It is an ordeal to get out of your dream entirely. You have to fail totally at being a human being. And that is the last thing you want to do.
I learned to let go and surrender every detail of my life to God. I have learned that God really is taking care of me totally. The miracles that have occurred are incredible. It worked and is continually working. I'm just a witness to it. I know I am not alone and that there is light all around me and I am safe in the light of His love for me. This never changes. NEVER.
God is right here giving you everything you need for your awakening. Do you want it? It is inevitable because the cost of sleeping is too great. You are not free now if you have any conflict thoughts in your mind, and you need help. You are in a causal loop of insanity. Admit it and ask for help. You will be given all you need for this awakening. I know because I couldn't do it alone. I needed total help, and I got it.
I am responsible for what I see. I choose the feelings I experience and I decide upon the goal I would achieve. And everything that seems to happen to me, I ask for and receive as I have asked.
This one statement is the key to your happiness.
Love and blessings!
What does it really mean to forgive the world? Can I forgive something I constructed? In this lesson, I learn that the means is always forgiveness. The means to the goal...what goal? Freedom and happiness. Eternal life.
I cannot forgive something I think is hurting me. I have to let go first of the idea that anything is outside of me or of my mind. I have to accept causation...that I made this world. Then, and only then, is there hope for me.
If I look to someone else to save me, or to help me, or to condemn me...that is still me. I am still doing that. So, I have to accept that first I am MIND. I am all MIND, indeed I am the Mind of God thinking. Next, I accept that if there is conflict in this MIND that I am, it cannot be true. Why? Because God's Mind is never, ever in conflict. The Mind of God is truth, happiness, and joy and total freedom.
Any idea that states that God knows of your conflict is therefore false. He knows only that you are asleep. He has already provided the means for your awakening...but it is up to you to accept this means, apply it and be free. You have to become very certain of this, that you are responsible for your awakening. All the help is there, but you have to use it.
You have A Course in Miracles, use it! It is your ticket out of hell. I knew it the instant I found it. I became so elated, I wanted to tell everyone about it. But, it was just for me. No one else really cared. I was all alone in my dream, looking for the answer. I had been in a depression for six months. I had hit bottom. And there was the answer. In black and white print! I couldn't believe it.
We have been at this for 40,000 years, dear ones. The answer is now here and the means are provided. You only need to apply it, use it, and free yourself of the idea that you could find freedom in bondage.
Forgiveness, I learned the hard way. I had to see that my construct of a world, where someone else can take something from me, where I can lose the things I love, where I can hate or be hated, is all going on inside me. It wasn't easy. I wanted to blame someone else. I was angry at God a lot! I couldn't believe that if I was on a spiritual path that things would not work out my way!
How arrogant I was. I really thought I could manipulate God. It was so insane. But that is what I was thinking at the time. When I finally saw that I had constructed the entire scenario, that I was indeed the problem itself, I died. I had a moment of realization that God is in charge, and I have nothing to say about anything here. I had no control over anything. I only had to surrender and let go. I could not forgive, however. And I knew it. I had to ask Jesus to forgive this whole thing for me. Because to me, it was real.
Guess what? He did. He sent me people who told me it was all okay, and they set me free of my guilt. Only then could I see the perfection of my story and that all of it was a set up, to set me free. I had set it up for my total dissolutionment, and my total freedom.
I failed entirely. And I was so happy! Forgiveness is a result of letting go of the story, of the drama of your own nightmare. I had to forget it, to really release it. But to do that, I had to see the perfection of it, and then see it all worked. I had set my goal of freedom and the drama played out. In the meantime, I was in the throes of my awakening. It was excruciating. But I knew that I had to apply this Course and really do it!
The details of the story are quite irrelevant. What is important is the realization that I am still here in the same body and yet, I woke up! My drama is no different than anyone's really. It involved everyone I loved, including my kids, my ex-husband, my family, and all my dear friends who supported me all the way. I had made a decision to be free and this is how it worked. You must uncover everything that is binding you and let it go! I had to get in there and play out my story and let it undo me, so that I could experience what is real. Was it hard? Absolutely. But in Chapter 4 of the Course, there is a section where Jesus describes that all you have constructed is pain, and THIS NEED NOT BE. He gives total assurance that he knows all about it, and is giving you the solution. It doesn't have to be painful, it's just that is usually is so. Because the emotional attachment to what you have constructed is enormous. It is an ordeal to get out of your dream entirely. You have to fail totally at being a human being. And that is the last thing you want to do.
I learned to let go and surrender every detail of my life to God. I have learned that God really is taking care of me totally. The miracles that have occurred are incredible. It worked and is continually working. I'm just a witness to it. I know I am not alone and that there is light all around me and I am safe in the light of His love for me. This never changes. NEVER.
God is right here giving you everything you need for your awakening. Do you want it? It is inevitable because the cost of sleeping is too great. You are not free now if you have any conflict thoughts in your mind, and you need help. You are in a causal loop of insanity. Admit it and ask for help. You will be given all you need for this awakening. I know because I couldn't do it alone. I needed total help, and I got it.
I am responsible for what I see. I choose the feelings I experience and I decide upon the goal I would achieve. And everything that seems to happen to me, I ask for and receive as I have asked.
This one statement is the key to your happiness.
Love and blessings!
Saturday, March 15, 2008
The Light Has Come
You are healed and you can heal. You are saved and you can save. You are at peace and you bring peace with you wherever you go. Darkness and turmoil and death have disappeared. The light has come.
This is such a timeless message. One day you will be totally saved and gone from this earth. You will not even remember your little life here on this tiny planet where you experienced for a brief moment in time, a prison for your mind. You will be free and will not ever remember an imaginary world where you came to die.
When will it happen? When you say so.
You have all power. Are you ready to exercise that power and depart this illusory world of nothingness? This is your choice. No one can do it for you.
If you are afraid of eternal life, of eternally loving everything and knowing who you are, you will not succeed. You must go through the "ring of fear". It feels like loss, but this is a trick. You can not lose your Self. You have lost already, you have lost your awareness of your Oneness with Everything. This is your only problem.
It doesn't take time. Because time is a trick, a sleight of hand, a vast illusion. Time is part of the game you are playing with yourself. It doesn't exist. There is only NOW.
What happened to me was that one day I awoke and realized I had everything I wanted. I felt tremendously strange, like nothing meant anything at all. I had money, kids, a house, a family, a healing practice. And it all was totally flat. I begged for help.
I was told to sit still. What occurred next lasted about four days.
I was instructed by light beings to lie down, let go of my resistance to this next step. I felt so weird. I entered a void in my mind. I let go into it. I was released from it and waves and waves of love poured all through me physically and mentally. I was in so much light! I felt that I was being changed from horizontal perception into a vertical realignment. Words don't really describe it.
I only remember that it was extremely emotional. I felt so much love, I cried for hours begging that it would never end. I wanted only that. Guess what I was told? It never ends! Love is eternal and so am I. Well, this was a major turning point and I have never been the same.
I felt very different after this. I felt light beings all around me for days and days. I went to a funeral for Jonathan Larson, the man who wrote the broadway show, Rent, who died just before it opened. My husband at the time had helped him arrange the music for the show over several years. I felt him there and knew he wasn't dead. I could feel his love and dedication to getting the message of love out into the world.
My whole life felt like it was totally new. I was in an altered state. I didn't know quite what to do with myself. So, I just kept doing normal things like taking care of my kids and cleaning the house. But I was different. I began to laugh at everything. I remember sweeping the kitchen floor and being so elated. I used to hate doing that.
My body changed, my skin softened and I had to learn to walk again. I felt pain still, but I learned to send it up through the top of my head. It always released rather easily. I was a bit angry that I could still feel everything. My senses were actually heightened to a degree that I had never experienced before.
I asked what do I do know? Within a few months, I met the Master Teacher on a video. There was an immediate recognition. I spent that day in communication with him. I knew he was my teacher, although I had never met him in the body.
Everything changed after that, I moved to Wisconsin and left my old life of suffering behind me. God was in charge of my life from then on. Every day is an adventure now. I have joined with those who are awake, who want to be totally free. There is nothing else to do now.
I love you! You are saved! You are free. When I am healed, I am not healed alone. You are in my mind, so you are healed along with me. All that is required for your enlightenment is the recognition that this is true.
How can I help you?
Thank you !
This is such a timeless message. One day you will be totally saved and gone from this earth. You will not even remember your little life here on this tiny planet where you experienced for a brief moment in time, a prison for your mind. You will be free and will not ever remember an imaginary world where you came to die.
When will it happen? When you say so.
You have all power. Are you ready to exercise that power and depart this illusory world of nothingness? This is your choice. No one can do it for you.
If you are afraid of eternal life, of eternally loving everything and knowing who you are, you will not succeed. You must go through the "ring of fear". It feels like loss, but this is a trick. You can not lose your Self. You have lost already, you have lost your awareness of your Oneness with Everything. This is your only problem.
It doesn't take time. Because time is a trick, a sleight of hand, a vast illusion. Time is part of the game you are playing with yourself. It doesn't exist. There is only NOW.
What happened to me was that one day I awoke and realized I had everything I wanted. I felt tremendously strange, like nothing meant anything at all. I had money, kids, a house, a family, a healing practice. And it all was totally flat. I begged for help.
I was told to sit still. What occurred next lasted about four days.
I was instructed by light beings to lie down, let go of my resistance to this next step. I felt so weird. I entered a void in my mind. I let go into it. I was released from it and waves and waves of love poured all through me physically and mentally. I was in so much light! I felt that I was being changed from horizontal perception into a vertical realignment. Words don't really describe it.
I only remember that it was extremely emotional. I felt so much love, I cried for hours begging that it would never end. I wanted only that. Guess what I was told? It never ends! Love is eternal and so am I. Well, this was a major turning point and I have never been the same.
I felt very different after this. I felt light beings all around me for days and days. I went to a funeral for Jonathan Larson, the man who wrote the broadway show, Rent, who died just before it opened. My husband at the time had helped him arrange the music for the show over several years. I felt him there and knew he wasn't dead. I could feel his love and dedication to getting the message of love out into the world.
My whole life felt like it was totally new. I was in an altered state. I didn't know quite what to do with myself. So, I just kept doing normal things like taking care of my kids and cleaning the house. But I was different. I began to laugh at everything. I remember sweeping the kitchen floor and being so elated. I used to hate doing that.
My body changed, my skin softened and I had to learn to walk again. I felt pain still, but I learned to send it up through the top of my head. It always released rather easily. I was a bit angry that I could still feel everything. My senses were actually heightened to a degree that I had never experienced before.
I asked what do I do know? Within a few months, I met the Master Teacher on a video. There was an immediate recognition. I spent that day in communication with him. I knew he was my teacher, although I had never met him in the body.
Everything changed after that, I moved to Wisconsin and left my old life of suffering behind me. God was in charge of my life from then on. Every day is an adventure now. I have joined with those who are awake, who want to be totally free. There is nothing else to do now.
I love you! You are saved! You are free. When I am healed, I am not healed alone. You are in my mind, so you are healed along with me. All that is required for your enlightenment is the recognition that this is true.
How can I help you?
Thank you !
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
My only function is the one God gave me.
I just returned from a two week trip to Bogota, Colombia to teach at the Center for Un Curso De Milagros. It was a blast. Every day, two sessions each day, brothers would show up to experience the teaching and light of A Course in Miracles. This is a very active center and I was amazed at how beautiful everyone was and how easily they joined in a light experience not of this world.
My mighty companion, Marielle brought me there and taught with me every day. We had amazing experiences of healing of our personal lives, including relationships, and we also joined totally with these great teachers of the Course. Our Colombian brothers are so open and able to assist new people with the teaching. I felt right at home from the moment I arrived.
This lesson today sums up the focus of my life and nothing shows me this more than having a teaching assignment. My head was always cracking open and letting the light heal the spatial reference that is Bogota. I wasn't concerned with how many showed up, just that the quality of the conversion was so powerful and strong there.
I went through a lot of personal release and recognized in my brothers there the need for intimacy and healing of our relationships. We must focus on the release of our brothers from the need to stick together or determine how the relationship should look. I let go of a lot of mistrust of my brother and painful memories. I allowed every conversation to heal me. I joined with every brother to assist in the conversion of memories. All relationships are for joining and healing now. No other purpose could there possibly be. We are freeing each other to go home. We cannot do this without forgiveness. And this mighty function is the one God gave me.
But can I truly heal an illusion? No! It is not real, so the fastest way out is to recognize that with every relationship you maintain, you have an idea of grievance with it. Use the important forgiveness lessons from the Course, 61 - 70. Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world. Let me not forget my function. Each day we emphasize the need for healing of relationship because that is all that is actually going on in time/space.
Relationship actually is a part of the illusion. In truth, you are your Self. You have no relationship at all. You are whole. There is nothing outside you to relate to. Relativity is a lie. Yet, your function is still forgiveness while you are in time.
So, utilize these lessons. Each one can be seen as a way out of the hell of maintaining pain with your brother. Let him go! He is not separate from you, but you maintain him in your mind as an idea of possession. Free him from the bondage of your own idea of him and you will be free. Let him just be himself. The only appropriate response to a brother is appreciation. Gratitude. He is you, reflecting the light of your mind to you. Or the dark of your mind.
It is up to you how you respond. But the line I keep in mind is "You would not react at all to figures in a dream you knew you were dreaming." See if this works for you.
Blessings!
My mighty companion, Marielle brought me there and taught with me every day. We had amazing experiences of healing of our personal lives, including relationships, and we also joined totally with these great teachers of the Course. Our Colombian brothers are so open and able to assist new people with the teaching. I felt right at home from the moment I arrived.
This lesson today sums up the focus of my life and nothing shows me this more than having a teaching assignment. My head was always cracking open and letting the light heal the spatial reference that is Bogota. I wasn't concerned with how many showed up, just that the quality of the conversion was so powerful and strong there.
I went through a lot of personal release and recognized in my brothers there the need for intimacy and healing of our relationships. We must focus on the release of our brothers from the need to stick together or determine how the relationship should look. I let go of a lot of mistrust of my brother and painful memories. I allowed every conversation to heal me. I joined with every brother to assist in the conversion of memories. All relationships are for joining and healing now. No other purpose could there possibly be. We are freeing each other to go home. We cannot do this without forgiveness. And this mighty function is the one God gave me.
But can I truly heal an illusion? No! It is not real, so the fastest way out is to recognize that with every relationship you maintain, you have an idea of grievance with it. Use the important forgiveness lessons from the Course, 61 - 70. Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world. Let me not forget my function. Each day we emphasize the need for healing of relationship because that is all that is actually going on in time/space.
Relationship actually is a part of the illusion. In truth, you are your Self. You have no relationship at all. You are whole. There is nothing outside you to relate to. Relativity is a lie. Yet, your function is still forgiveness while you are in time.
So, utilize these lessons. Each one can be seen as a way out of the hell of maintaining pain with your brother. Let him go! He is not separate from you, but you maintain him in your mind as an idea of possession. Free him from the bondage of your own idea of him and you will be free. Let him just be himself. The only appropriate response to a brother is appreciation. Gratitude. He is you, reflecting the light of your mind to you. Or the dark of your mind.
It is up to you how you respond. But the line I keep in mind is "You would not react at all to figures in a dream you knew you were dreaming." See if this works for you.
Blessings!
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