Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Fearless



This is a painting by a dear friend of mine in New York, Monica Serra. She is an awakened mind and I went to visit her last week after several years. She is amazing. Her transformation is in her paintings and she demonstrates the love of God so beautifully in her giving of herself to all her friends and family. She is incredible and I am so grateful to have her in my life!

A few days ago, we watched the Master Teacher's video from the Presidio, San Francisco from March of 1999. My friend Monica and I together met the Master at this Reunion of the Teachers of God. It was a moment in time I will never forget. I only know that the Plan is perfect in its timing and there is indeed nothing to fear. I only know that my part is essential and I can value it above all else.

I have lost my fear. I have lost my need to learn through pain. I have been blessed with friends that are deeply committed to this awakening. I know that I had only to make one decision to awaken and that was a real choice. Everything that happened to me after that came from this one decision which reflected a willingness to be healed, to be forgiven and to release my mind, my world that I made up to keep me in hell. As a separate mind, I don't know how to forgive, but I do know how to ask that Jesus show me how. And he did. He is with me. I talk to him all through the day. I know he totally loves me and wants only my perfect happiness. I have a real intimate relationship with him and he is my guide and savior.

I know that my initiation into this brotherhood of awakened minds has occurred. I constantly feel the assistance all around me, especially when conflict arises in my daily life. I know there is a Voice in my mind that is constantly speaking to me and helping to see everything totally new. If I accept that healing in every moment, I am free. I have to be vigilant for God.

Fear is just a poor perspective and doesn't exist. When you are fearful you don't exist. It's like your mind is just on hold when you are allowing fear to rule your life. Yet, to go past it, you must let it arise in your awareness. Don't reject it. Don't resist evil, don't resist fear. Let it come into your mind and ask for help from the Great Corrector. Your mind knows how to heal itself. That is why you never need be sick or in pain. The correction device is in you. In the Urantia Book, it is called the Thought Adjuster. Each of us has this Thought Adjuster in our mind and can access it at any time. This Adjuster works all the time to help in the release of the false self.

That is what the Kingdom of Heaven is, a kingdom of conscience, of being aware of the thoughts you are thinking and the willingness to have them be corrected. When I am in pain, I cannot wait to have the correction. I move through it very fast because the pain is intolerable to me.

Can you tolerate the judgments you make? Can you tolerate wanting to change external circumstances? Are you frustrated with your relationships because they don't really satisfy you? Remember, nothing can be changed outside of your mind. Your mind gives everything you see all the meaning it has for you. Therefore, seek not to change the world, but to simply change your own mind. This is the secret to salvation. It is so simple, yet you must do it. You must be about your Father's business. Mind is singular. You are not two selves in conflict. Life is eternal and you are that life. It never ends, therfore, there is nothing to fear. Death is impossible. God created you eternal, perfect and whole. Can you accept that?

I learned this in a very practical way from the 12 Step Program which does not give me one ounce of room for self-deception. I found that in doing the steps, my mind was healed and the revelation that I was the problem in every circumstance. Even when it really seemed like someone had done something to me. The steps show me in total clarity that behind every grievance is a bunch of fear. And this fear must be uncovered to be healed. Doing the steps is simply an exercise in looking at yourself, revealing the fears, letting be corrected and then, voila! You become a brand new YOU.

I cannot believe the light and love I experience each day from following this simple program. It is astounding. Everything has changed and I am free of all that fear I had covered up. I live in the NOW. The dream has taken on a new light of love and acceptance that I never knew possible. I am here only to truly serve and love and give and be happy!

Let me know if you need anything at all. I love you with all my heart. You are part of me and we are free!

Thank you!
Blessings!
Monica

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Who walks with me?

As I read today's lesson, the question at the end suggests that we ask ourselves this a thousand times. A thousand times!

I ask it in the form of a song. I feel that this is a constant prayer. A repetition of a question that cannot be answered by words alone. The feeling I experience is assurance, calm, certainty. I can imagine that I am with all the ascended masters. Watched over. Taken care of like a newborn baby by its adoring mother.

All these feelings come into my awareness when I sincerely ask the question. Do I dare do so? I have nothing else that is more important to do. There isn't anything more important than an experience of total joining with my One Self. All worldly activities seem pale compared to this desire for knowledge, for the experience of wholeness.

It isn't hard. It is just that I have to value this above all other activities of this seemingly distracting world. I don't have to be distracted by it, however. No more. I simply have to give myself to the practice.

Stay alert. Keep my focus on the inner peace, the inner state of my mind. It isn't hard, it is just different.

Let me know how this goes for you.

Blessings!